| Everyone says im Mexican... |
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Indian in your eyes- twothirtyeight |
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so.
I dropped out of MTSU.
I am now going to The Anchor Fellowship School Of Ministry.
I dearly miss my sisters... and New Orleans.. and the friends i had there.
I've changed so much in the last year... i wonder how much for the better.
so... yeah.
I've been freaking out about making a career for my self... maybe it's time to let God be God and me to be me...
I can get a job. but i want a career. so yeah... we'll see where that takes me.
im getting a tiny bit tired so... im going to go to bed.
good night
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[18 Jun 2006|01:44pm] |
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i hate bringing pain to those i love....
i have so much to fix in my life... but i guess most people do...
im not sure if i need to do it alone, but i wont risk hurting anyone along the way.
kinda feel old, and useless.
i am very scared of being a bum...
like literally living under a bridge kind of bum.
i miss so many people... and its my fault that i distanced some of those people...
i dont know if im coming back... or even where im going right now.. but i pray God will guide me
its been far too long since i told him to stop back seat driving.
we'll see how school goes.
save me.. im drowing.
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| a time to kill... |
[10 Jun 2006|07:16pm] |
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oh i could lis the things i want to do...
but it wouldnt matter, cause im almost certain i wouldnt do them.
i feel so shitless right now.
oh well...
so, i am for some reason dizzy, have a cough, and a sore throat that feels like i have razorblades sliding down my throat everytime i swallow.
as for other complaints... i miss home, my sisters, and friends (you know who you all are).
hmmm.
i decided our government sux pretty bad under this administration.
i will probally piss people off when i say this but i dont understand liberal ideals...
and oh yeah, i hate advertisements.. and many aspects of capitalism.
good things:
Tennessee isn't too bad...
i have aa amazingly awesome girlfriend (mandy lindamood)
and im getting more active... even if its only a tiny bit (with mandy's help)
and since i feel cruddy i'll go a head and list my to do list.
get a job, clean my room, get back into church, etc...
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| Attention negros. |
[13 Apr 2006|11:47am] |
I will be in L-town Louisiana fri-sun this week.
drop by, bfo i gotta pop a cap
shiiiit
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| the beast |
[21 Jan 2006|02:54pm] |
call it masochism if you must.
my mother would be ashamed.
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| yup |
[07 Jan 2006|09:14pm] |
all these tears are for you...
words.
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| yep... |
[18 Nov 2005|09:21pm] |
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in Tennessee still....
not coming down for thanksgiving due to lack of days off :(
on the bright side my ears are back @ 11/16ths of an inch which means i can fit my fossilized mammoth ivory plugs in now!
click here to see a pic of them (soon i should have 1 of me with them :)
um.
i miss everyone.
leave a comment to make me feel fuzzy inside :)
oh, and btw, turns out insurance isnt going to pay for anything i lost as a few (8) feet of water took on my house in the 9th ward :(
had to end on that note for some reason...
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| a camel through the eye of a needle |
[18 Sep 2005|05:30pm] |
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so...
crazy thing today, but first some background
I lost alot to Katrina.
clothes- all but 1 pair of shoes, (i recently bought a cheap pair of mochisons, yeah i cant spell for crap)all but 2 pair of jeans, all my dress clothes, and pretty much every jacket and "accessory" i owned
electronics- all but my psp, and i brought that cause i can get internet access w/ it. (ps2, computer, tv, games, dvds, cds... everything)
books & comics
guitars-(luckily my main set up minus some effects pedals and wires was at the church safe, so that is one of like 3 things that i have, the others being my car and psp)
basicly alot of crap.
well....
i went to play racquet ball the other day (super fun!), and noticed that Chucks arent the best athletic shoe.
so, i went to journeys to buy some sauconys, cause i owned some b4 katrina, and i knew they worked as athletic and everyday shoes.
on another note ive been really thinking about matthew 19:16-28 for about the last year or 2...
and ive come to this conclusion:
i have nothing, yet i have more than most have.
i mean that not only cause i have more possessions still than most, but also because i have Christ in my heart, my Sisters and family are ok, and im healthy.
maybe i dont need more crap.
buying these shoes made me feel bad, although they werent terribly expensive and i need shoes...
well, @ church today they asked (in a very suprising, and ground-breaking move) everyone to take off their shoes and give them to the church to send to katrina victims and africa. there was more to it than that, and if youre hung up on that tell me and i'll further explain.
but this kinda struck me. should i give my chucks? i have only 2 pairs of real shoes now, as the mochisons dont have hard soles...
but i decided i shouldnt need more than one pair of shoes... and alot of other stuff.
so i start, this very morning, to try to live with out as many luxeries as possible.
im not saying im gonna live in a cave with nothing, but... well, hopefully you get the point.
things to think about.
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| #30 |
[11 Sep 2005|08:28am] |
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anyone catch that LSU game? a certain HHS grad. rocked!
as did Russell, and the special teams hahaha
now if we can only learn to HOLD ON TO THE BALL
oh, and btw, i live in tenn. now so i can attend MTSU (middle tennesse state university)
so.... yeah
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| lets make the best of it... |
[04 Sep 2005|11:12am] |
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cause i dont feel like sitting on my butt all day doing nothing...
so i tracked down some great shows in houston!
last night was On Broken Wings, Nodes of Ranvier, Calico System,
and My Last War.
but.
they didnt play, yet it was on the site, instead i saw a show across the street:
Ardor, The Last Place You Look,Hollywood Black, and Shortcomings.
anyone wanna guess who was my fav of the group??
yeah, hollywood black was great, despite a bass malfunction on the 1st 2 songs.
i got there early, cause it was listed earlier on the site (inconsistancy #2)
and said hi to HB, and offered to help them unload.
we went down the street and hung out with them and their gals b4 the show, then went out to eat after, an all around good night, cause these are super nice guys and gals. :)
i thought ACB and evergreen terrace played tonight, but apparantly thats tommorrow :(
but i think that just means imma be hanging out with the guys again today, and maybe catch that show tomm.
i should be coming home soon... and by home i mean my grandparents in Luling, cause i lived in the 9th ward...
yeah, my house and everything i own is under water. BUT, God must really want me to play music, cause most of my good guitar set up is @ FBC Luling, and its dry and safe!!!!! :D
well, if you read all of that, awesome... check out Hollywood Black!
hollywoodblack.org
myspace.com/hollywoodblack
you'll like them, expecially if youre a fan of twothirtyeight or MXPX
Love-
Marc
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[26 Aug 2005|02:39am] |
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| i will give it a name... |
[25 Aug 2005|10:31pm] |
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so...
as soon as it has started (for me anyways) it is coming to an end
friday september 2nd @ first baptist luling church will be first sign of panic's (my band's)
last show...
you should come out and see us... (as well as as we fall)
after the HHS football game.
so.. this is it, if you wanna come support me and the guys this is your last chance...
and then there was this...
"We are OK, in a misguided Sadist way
We are OK
We are OK, in a disabled veteran way
We are OK"
"You might lose the one you choose.
You might lose who won you times ten."
"When you laugh you'll feel my breath there
filling up your lungs. And when you cry,
those aren't your tears but I'm there
falling down your cheek.
adn when you say you love him, taste me
I'm like poison on your tongue-
But when you're tired, if you're quiet,
you'll hear me singing you to sleep."
"I was once the wine, and you the wineglass.
I was once alive, when you held me.
God became the glass,
all things left were emptiness
Oh, my little girl, if you look out
andsee a trace of dark red that used
to be my face, in the clarity of his
grace: remember me."
"When dreams of rings of flowers fade and blur
Giving way to that familiar ill
come over and part your soft white curtains
Where I'm waiting for you still
If you'd unlatch the window,
If you'd let me lay there on your floor
If you'd give me another chance,
If you'd forget the pain I caused before
No use in saying how I'm sorry
So I'm trying not to speak
I'll sing in silence, lay beside you
With my face there on your cheek
My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar-
I'll believe it's lies again."
"My Lord, how long to sing this song?
And my Lord, how muchmore of this pretending to be strong?
When she stands before your throne
Dressed in beauty not her own
All soft and small, you'll hear her call
"you brought me here, now take me home." "
"it's the end of the morning
what have i done?
it's finally getting warmer
oh God what have i done?
prayers for your soul while hoping mine
would leave this awful place sometime
somewhere better with no more pain
you won't love him you'll love me again
i was the one the one who was always here
fate seeks my soul and it's drawing near
i'd die today if you could forgive me, dear
i said that anything mattered... words
i'd sing you a song i'd love you if i knew how
it's too late to hold or kiss you now
He wont remember were made perfect somehow
"this morning is different" ... words
i look down she's asleep in a place she can smile again
the world will forget her as she disappears to them
i swore i'd love her i'd rather pretend
"all these tears are for you" ... words
with poison within me and everything still
i know now what i have to do (what i never will)
i will lift up my eyes to the hills
promises, promises, promises ... words"
"Jesus have mercy on us....."
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| "forgive everyone everything" |
[13 Aug 2005|11:44am] |
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if you get a chance (and being that you are reading my LJ entry you probally have time to "waste") check out mewithoutYou.com...
go to journal and read aarons last post.
anyways. ive been kinda off lately..
and when i mean lately i mean the last few years.
i feel like ive lost something, but im on my way to finding it and making it part of me again.
well. no use in elaborating, so. yeah.
btw, if you dont know im in New Orleans now, i live in the east (on franklin ave.)
come stop by! or drop me a line... id like to get together with some of you.
well. its time for a shower... cause i smell.
peace
-Marc
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| what good is one mitten, with out the other? |
[10 Aug 2005|01:28pm] |
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We never met, you and I
We were always inside, we were somewhere inside
one another. And I'll live without you love,
but what good is one glove, without the other?
Still you only ask about my leaving,
well honey I had no choice, so
I call and (when you hear that heavy breathing)
for that sound of your voice.
But you sit there silent, folded arms
And look down as I walk by
Though my face has changed, you know it's me
You know by the stillness in my eyes.
Come and whisper in my ear, "you're very pretty, dear" and
"it'll be alright." You're lying!
But I don't mind tonight.
So I wander and I wander
Your absence beating inside my chest and
I try but I can't remember
The color of your eyes- just the shape of your dress.
And through a garden overgrown
Oh, it's a long walk home.
I said I'd not come back, well I'm coming back-
and you'd better be alone.
sit there silent, folded arms
And you smile as I walk by
Though my face has changed, but you know it's me,
You know its me!
Come and whisper in my ear, "My dear, my dear
it'll be alright! it'll be alright...
it'll be alright... it'll be alright...
it'll be alright... it'll be alright...
it'll be all-right"
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| long time coming... |
[07 Aug 2005|01:03am] |
so...
there was alot of potential there... but it went untapped.
i dont feel that it was time wasted, cause i have learned a great deal about myself...
im ready to move on in my life, ready to apply what trials and pain has brought forth.
i am relieved and sad at the same time.
it has been hard but its now finally over..
no coming back.
official.
i am single, once again.
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| more band stuff! |
[26 Jul 2005|11:06pm] |
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As Cities Burn- incomplete is the leech |
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OK
good news, the full cd is done (refer to last post) and now all 7 tracks can be found online...
3 of which are at http://www.purevolume.com/firstsignofpanic
the other 4 are on our myspace page, http://myspace.com/firstsignofpanic
we had a pretty limited amount of time to do these and i think they are pretty great concidering...
tell me what ya think!
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| NEW SONGS!!! |
[26 Jul 2005|11:48am] |
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first sign of panic songs (listeing for mistakes) |
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for those of you who dont know i am in a band named "first sign of panic"
we just finished recording... we have 3 songs up right now..
www.purevolume.com/firstsignofpanic to listen...
now these arent fully mixed and arent mastered at all... so they are ruff right now...
in the next couple of days all of the 7 songs will be up, finished and sounding wonderfull :)
tell me what you think...
we had a small amount of recording time with alot of songs, so its not the best, but i think its pretty darn good concidering!
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| yes. i am a dork, but im a dork who is hotter than 87% of other dorks! |
[26 Jul 2005|10:09am] |
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yeah, so i was talking so some friends the other day and they said they were rating ppl on hotornot.com
now it has been a looong while since ive been on that site. so i went and rated some ppl.
got kinda bored though...
then i figured hey, il put my pic on there and see what i get.
to my surprise im doing pretty well! :)
heres a link: http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=N8NQRLA&key=TQP
now im not gonna ask you to put a 10 if you do vote, cause i want an accurate score. (cause it makes me feel special that with out friends help i am like around an 8 or higher! but you know... i wont be pissed if you DONT put a 1, 2 or 3 ;)
but yeah... idk. im a dork but i guess it was kinda fun.
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| I got Blisters On MY Finguhs! |
[03 Jul 2005|11:17am] |
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on random, but as of now Morrisey-I have forgiven you Jesus |
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Yeah, so last night i finished reupholstering my cab and adding a nice touch of color to my amp...
( check out these b4 and after pics )
basicly the only thing on the head that changed is the part behind the mesh, but the cab looks way different!
now, i bought the cab from Colin of ACB, and i didnt want to just toss the old "skin" in the trash, so i have it rolled up, complete with the old "as cities burn" Tag spray-painted on the back... i know colin was excited when he got to do that so il keep it for him if he wants it, if not i think itll make a cool wall hanging :)
Thanks to mah boi C1 we got all the skin on in a relatively short time.. after we got it completely disassembled... it took me a while to get it back together as the screw holes were hard to find lol, but it came together easier than i thought.
as the name of this post implies, my intire body is sore from putting it back together... expecially my hands,, they feel liek they were run over by a tank.. oh well i think it was worth it!
so, what do you think???
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